Things that happen around us

When I get up in the morning, I open the following web pages: gmail, cnn, bbc, and wikipedia.
I gave up on local news a long time ago. I'd bet that if I stop watching tv for a year, and then turn it on for news in Romania, nothing will be new.
We'll be having presidential elections this November, and there's absolutely no one to vote for.
Here, things seem to go only one way: down. On a global level, on the other hand, interesting things happen.
I think it's somewhat true that we are the product of our surroundings and environment. And I like to blame this for my lack on enthusiasm.

Downloaded the first episode of House, season 6. Boy, did I miss that guy. Apart from his atheism, I find we have many things in common. Ok, his atheism and the fact he's not real. Yet art inspires itself from real life, and vice versa. :)

part two

I have changed. For better and for worse. There are so many things to update on my profile. Movies, music, books. Minor things that have to be done.
In these last two years I think music has been almost my only refuge. Music and trying to figure out what His great plan is, and how it involves me.
It took me years to figure out what I had known in theory for so many years. It happened this Easter, it was cold, I was freezing, we were on the sea shore at Mangalia... there was more than an hour left until the religious service. So I went with a friend from the choir in search of a place were we could drink something hot, and get warm. And that is what we did; a cup of hot coffee and a shot of vodka did the trick.
We went outside, walking along the beach, and I was contemplating on a cigarette and asking myself: what the ... am I doing here?
And then came midnight. And the priest said: come and receive the Light! And again, for a second and third time. In that moment we started singing 'Christ is risen from the dead...'
Where were all the people. Where did the wind and cold go?
In that moment, it hit me: God loves me...

Back again

Hopefully for a while longer, not just a single post. Many things have happened these last 2 years.
Milestones on a path I'm not so sure of.
I wish I could say there was something for me to learn from all of this... I'm still figuring things out.
The thing that changed me the most was the battle against cancer that my mother, sadly, lost last year.
God rest her soul with the saints.
It's been mostly down hill since.
I went to visit my brother in the USA about a month ago. Going away for a while felt good. And it did a lot of good. Suddenly things seemed a little brighter. Maybe there is a light at the end of this tunnel.
One thing is for sure, something is changing, and I along with it.
New questions and conclusions about "Life, the universe and everything" (the quote the title of a book by Douglas Adams :P ) await answers/comments.